Stream of conscienousness…… or crap
Regard this post as complete crap. Just need to get this out.
Really feeling like a sucky mom right now. Spend alot of time at the computer, trying to network, figure out how to make working from home work. Really getting nowhere. More distracted than getting anything done. Too much multitasking. Too much failing at everything. Need to work to make ends meet. Don’t want to put kids in day care as too expensive to warrant me working. Plus, there is alot I am not qualified for. So, have to work off hours, but with hubby’s schedule, it is hard to find something for those hours.
Dental costs = very painful.
Want to break into photography or writing, finding it difficult to do this. The clarity of this post may illustrate why. And I am getting spread too thin. And I really don’t know what I am doing.
Feel like I ignore the kids too much. Don’t know if I am teaching them enough. They are learning despite me.
Need a game plan.
Make all the whining stop and the incessant “mommy” stop (even if I am playing with them).
I guess I am whining too.
Again disregard this post.
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Sorry, can’t disregard. I feel the same way. I am working outside the home, but would like to break into photography and writing too as a supplement to the full time job.
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I’m with you. I work full time outside the home and am constantly finding myself torn between feeling like I suck as a mom, or feeling like I suck as a manager & employee. It always seems to be “either/or”; I can’t ever feel like I’m being a GREAT mom at the same time that I feel like I’m being a GREAT manager and employee. I always feel like I’m shortchanging someone, even when I know that no matter what, that for me being a Mom comes first. Knowing I’m making the right choices and have the right priorities doesn’t help when I’m calling in yet another sick day at work because Bobbin has an ear infection or a fever; and getting to work on time for a team meeting that I called doesn’t make me feel good about having to leave Bobbin in tears at preschool.
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hey corina, you’ve summed it up perfectly…..i often feel the exact same way! sucky mom, wife, housekeeper, cook,….etc, etc.
it just helps to hear that i’m not the only one struggling.
ek
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