The Little Moments That Slow Me Down
I live in my head. Thoughts swarm around my brain like bees around a hive. I jump from thought to thought. A running list of everything I have on my To-Do list haunts me, sucking all concentration and energy. The list never gets smaller.
I question; question whether I am good enough, question my decisions, question my actions.
I am a skeptic, searching for the answers, postulating and observing, researching and testing.
I am in need of mindfulness training.
Then there are the little moments that slow me down, provide me a second of clarity, wistfulness.
The moment I curl up with my son in the wee hours of morning and hold his hand, his fingers twitching in mine as he drifts off to dreamland.
The moment my daughter looks at me through the glass at Tae Kwon Do, smile from ear to ear, proud of her accomplishment.
The moment I look at my children playing and laughing together, hand in hand.
The moment I watch my daughter become the teacher and show my son how to “do a trick”.
The moment I listen to my husband laugh at with my kids.
The moment my husband and I “bust” on each other, each with a sly smile and a twinkle in our eyes.
The moment that shutter clicks, I pull up the photo, and realize that I have captured a stellar photograph.
These are the moments that slow my mind, the moments that make it all bearable. It is in these brief , tenuous moments where life exists, where our nature and our true being lie. I long for these moments, search for them everyday. I need to make more of an effort to get out of my head and be open to them, rather than squandering them.
Slow down. Breathe. Observe. Live.
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It’s the not squandering them that’s so hard, isn’t it? When we’re rushing to get something done, or focused on something that seems important, but really isn’t… I’ll look really hard for those moments tomorrow…
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It’s great that you can slow down and enjoy those moments. It’s so hard to do.
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You’re more aware than you give yourself credit. The descriptions of the moments you experience, such connection to self, such emotion in time, treasures you have now noted and shared with us all.
Thank you!
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I could not say this better myself! Completely agree!
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Corina,
I stumbled across your blog today, and must tell you how impressed I am. In fact your use of the words “I am” mean more than you may realize. I love the positive energy you are sending out to people through your writing. Thank You. Let me share with you how I use the words “I am” I use them to create positive affirmation to myself. It works like this. I think about things I want in life and envision myself already there. Not just dreaming it, but in my mind seeing myself accomplish my dreams. Then, I write down statements like “I am a great father!” I am spiritually in tune”, I am a great communicator” “I am attracting wonderful people as friends” etc… I regularly update and read my “I am” statements to myself at least once a day. It may sound silly, but it really works for me. I would love to hear your thoughts.
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